The LDS Church has changed so much since when I was a child. I encourage younger LDS people who find my site to read Mormon Doctrine by Elder Bruce R. McConkie to better understand the Church I was raised in and was a proud Missionary for. The LDS Church and my LDS Mission shaped my life and I have much to be thankful for.
The big question for you is this, is Jesus God made flesh as St. John teaches us, or was Jesus our Elder Spirit Brother who became a God through his mission here on Earth? If you believe that Jesus was God made flesh then you need to keep looking for the truth as I did.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us.
I came to believe that Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist and not just a symbol of his body as in the Sacrament:
The Jews therefore strove among themselves, saying, How can this man give us his flesh to eat? Then Jesus said unto them, Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except ye eat the flesh of the Son of man, and drink his blood, ye have no life in you. Whoso eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, hath eternal life; and I will raise him up at the last day. For my flesh is meat indeed, and my blood is drink indeed. He that eateth my flesh, and drinketh my blood, dwelleth in me, and I in him. As the living Father hath sent me, and I live by the Father: so he that eateth me, even he shall live by me. This is that bread which came down from heaven: not as your fathers did eat manna, and are dead: he that eateth of this bread shall live for ever.
There is a lot more to learn about Christianity before 1830. For starters, read the Gospel of St. John and learn about St. Augustine, St. Patrick, and St. Francis.